Little known facts:
This morning I awoke before my lover. I couldn’t resist, I eased close to her. After a few minutes I could no longer resist, I reached for her and drew her as close as I could. She awoke, enough to know I wanted a kiss. I pulled her close and held her just enjoying the fact that after nearly 62 years (next month) I still had her. I am so lucky and blessed.
Oh, I make the mistake of taking life for granted too many times. I can still remember even into my 30’s I thought mama and daddy would always be around. WE are now pushing our 80’s and I know this love, physical-touching love, will not always be. I think of the readers of this blog who have already lost the love of their life. I can read it in YOUR writings how you miss HIM. But me, WHY NOW? WHY this MORNING?
Because just in the past few days the wife of a good friend called to tell us her husband had just passed away, it happened while he was out shopping at Lowes. THEN it was like lightning struck. Reading an e-mail from Jim, up in Channahon, ILL, he wrote: “I am sorry to be the bearer of sad news, but Jean passed away this morning!” WHAT? NO!
WE met Jim and Jean in the USN. They were newlyweds, just couple years older than our sons. We have been corresponding friends with visits every few years. Just THIS April they were at our table in our new home in Florida. Sherry had fixed lasagna. Jean was her fun loving self. Such a sweet lovely lady AND AS ALWAYS it was a great time of swapping tales of plans, dreams, accomplishments, kids (they two girls, us two boys) and grand kids. Plans and dreams.
How could this be? This full-of-life, bicycle-riding lady, had fallen into a depression. Over a period of a couple months lost a lot of weight and her body functions just shut down. Jim’s words broke our hearts, “ I could see it in her eyes, she was in such pain, AND I COULD DO NOTHING ABOUT IT!”
SO YES, I have held my girl closer, I love her no more than yesterday, but for this instance I appreciate having her as my anchor, my hitching post, my life.
Yes, Life teaches us lessons, if we listen!