Sunday…. WE will be in church together today to WORSHIP!

 

 For today:

I have heard many explanations of why there were actual ‘physical miracles’ many years ago, but seldom nowadays. One is financial. It is true at the time my sister broke her arm the WWII was on and money was tight. I am not sure if there was such a thing as health insurance. If it did exist, dad could not have afforded it.  He certainly could not have afforded the hospital nor doctor.  So I will admit lack of finances may have contributed to the miracles.

Be that as it may, since I think, this is the first time I ever told this ‘OUT LOUD’ in writing (as I remember) here goes:

Our little church was growing. I began questioning God why I did not see miracles?  This church would grow by leaps if ONE miracle could happen.

Then I set that as a goal, I BELIEVED in miracles. I had preached about the Lord’s teachings of fasting. I fasted and prayed. NADA

Finally, I decided, okay, maybe not a physical one. God I am gonna give it another shot. I am not going to tell my ‘Church organizational leaders my problem, but I am going to see them. “God, if just one says, Jack, you have a problem, let’s pray about it!” I will BELIEVE and work myself to death for YOU.”

“If not, I am out of here.

(YEP, I know NOW how obstinate and stupid I was, it is a wonder God hadn’t struck me dead!)

All my church leaders sang my praises of how great a job I was doing, NOT ONE saw my heart to know I was BROKEN.

Later I went to Sherry and said, “Honey I am resigning Sunday, I will not stand in that pulpit and say things I do not believe.”  that broke my girl’s heart.

I had built a steeple and was installing it on another church in the area. That afternoon My sweetheart drove up there and standing on the ground looking up said, “Jack, you cannot believe what you said, that is crazy!”

I said calmly just as I felt, “Honey this (and I swung my arms around to that big church) This is all a joke. There is no God, I am through with this farce.”

She cried some, but it never did shake her faith. For a few years, after Gaston Tech, after joining the USN; I attended church with her regularly, I still respected her feelings.  We did have some trouble once, while stationed in D.C. over ‘my problem’. I have probably told that before in a different context.

Maybe we will talk about that later. ;-)

Thanks for coming this way.

Nite Shipslog

 

PS:  Sometimes I still worry about my sanity.  LOL  Some of you humans are a little crazy at times, maybe I am just a little more crazy!

I ask myself now, (as maybe you just did), how could you have seen GOD work and just forget it??  I have looked at scripture and wondered how someone could have seen Jesus and the great things he did and then turn and walk off, but some did.  CRAZY, isn't it?