I have had a ringing in my head for as long as I can remember. My earliest memories was on a ship in a quiet compartment, and laying awake listening to the scream, whistle or ringing. It is hard to say when it started, but it was young. I thought everyone heard the ringing.
Of course since getting older I learned about Tinnitus. Once a young lady was working on her Doctorate and interviewed me. She asked one question that I had never thought of, “Does the sounds increase after taking an aspirin?” I answered, NO. I should have paid attention. I did later. I took an aspirin and YES the noises did increase.
All my life (as many of you) I have heard of wild tales that, “The voices in my head told me to do it.”
Now I am here to tell you, that is possible. I am ‘fairly’ sane and reasonably intelligent (Except in the laws and rules of the English language), and I can ‘almost’ understand what the voices say. The noises in my head are not just ringing or squeals, but some roaring noises, some static noises and some garbled noises.
I know the brain has a recording device. I wonder sometimes if something overrides controls and I can ‘almost’ understand a previous conversation.
I don’t mean to sound weird (but I probably do), I sometime concentrate on the noises. My brain compares the thinking about the noises like laying on your back and observing clouds and seeing forms in them. “Look, there is a dog!” (etc). I have never actually heard a ‘word’ but it is like a person murmuring, you can ‘almost’ make it out.
My brain at times invents a new sound for my listening enjoyment. For the past year or so, it has been the sound of a good hollow sounding gutted muffler on a flathead Ford V8 as it accelerated from a stop. “Rumph, RUMPH rrrrrrrrrrrrrr umph,” that is as close as I can get it, the end fades into the distance.
As I sit here and type, I only hear the ringing. I have no idea what keys the word sounds to start, but something does. Yes I do listen, but I haven’t figured a word yet.
But maybe some of the weirdo’s that have blamed their actions on the voices in their heads, concentrated hard enough to read something into the sounds.
Thanks for reading the WEIRD post.
One never really knows, does one? (My oldest brothers favorite statement in explaining the weird.)
Hey, we are having future cars, nothing can stop that:
BMW of the future Hybred…
Yes, it is not smart, but if I had a choice between these two, I would take the 2DR ‘55 with a post.