Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Understanding what you hear, Hearing but not understanding….

(Pictures do not necessarily relate to the blog entry)
I have cried, yelled, fussed and griped so much on this BLOG that every one knows I am legally deaf.
I have known or met a couple blind folk. Some SEE nothing, some see forms and others can tell if it is daylight or dark.
A person who has bad eyesight can many times have that corrected by prescription glasses, and usually can see very well..
Hearing is ‘somewhat’ but not exactly like that, many folk only need amplification and they understand. I would bet that some folk reading this have a ringing or rushing noise in your head. And at times it is worse than others. At times the noise over rides the hearing sense and one does not understand.
I have a 95%+ hearing loss  along with Tinnitus (the ringing/noise) so most of the time I hear, but do not comprehend what is said.  Or worse, I think I understood and it was NOT what was said. THAT, gets me in trouble.
I do have hearing aids and they amplify, but they CANNOT CLARIFY!  Comparing: if you see writing as blurred and had glasses that made it bigger but not focused, it would still be unreadable. My hearing aids make some things LOUDER but still NOT clear. I have nerve damage.
Many times the ‘not getting it clear’ is my fault.  I ask “WHAT?” a couple times but still don’t understand and I am embarrassed to ask again so I  just ‘nod, like I understand’ and hope the message I miss isn’t life threatening.Surprised smile
(sometimes the deaf feel alone in a crowd)
Humans do crazy and even murderous things, and then say ‘the voices told them to do it’. 
 This is serious, so I want to be clear. I hear voices, true, I do. But I cannot make out what is said. It seems that I can just about make it out, but never do.  Since we have so much memory stored in our brain, I wonder if somehow my brain is playing something back I have heard? I mean that.
John as aboy
(This is Paula’s John, remembering when he was a boy)
Thursday about 4 AM I was awakened by my noises; it was the first time in months. My left ear was squealing like feedback you  hear in amplifiers, my right ear was one of the voices but in a sing-song fashion, of course none of the words were clear. I know (I think) that they are not voices, only noises that come across as muffled voices.
BUT if the the voices ever tell me something, y’all will be the first to know (after Sherry of course, I will let her laugh first!)  I hope the first thing I understand is the winning numbers to the Lottery.
Nite Shipslog
Politicians are people who, when they see light at the end of the tunnel, go
out and buy some more tunnel.
~John Quinton~

1982 Pontiac Firebird,  Kit?  WE must have been in GITMO when this program was on TV, I missed it.



My husband has Tinnitus and is hard of hearing too. So I understand.

Paula said...

I've been thinking for a while that computers and blogging must be a blessing to people who are hard of hearing as long as their sight is passable. You can communicate with friends because you don't have to hear them. John has no interest in learning the computer but of course he has the seeing problem too. Tonight I heard him telling his sister, she (meaning me) doesn't know how to send pictures in email. I wonder what he thinks I've been doing in this room in front of this computer since the year 2000. lol

shirl72 said...

I'm thankful I have my hearing and
so far in good health. We never
know what is inside waiting to
attack. I am so sorry about your
hearing. I just glad you were not
deaf from a baby. Remember we
use to say Mother could hear a pin
drop on carpet. I think being blind
would be so sad. I guess whatever
we have wrong with us we adjust.

Chatty Crone said...

I can't imagine not hearing - or seeing. My husband has some hearing loss too. He cuts his hand around his ears to catch my words.

That picture of John as a baby is cute! lol

I'm mostly known as 'MA' said...

I still have my hearing but do have the ringing in the ears. It got bad a few years back when I flew across country to one of my son's weddings. My ears hurt for a month after that one. Hearing is something many of us take for granted. Wouldn't we all like to hear the winning lottery numbers! Ha!

Louis la Vache said...

What an outrageously cute photo of that little boy and the horses! :-)

Glenda said...

Did NOT know you have tinnitus, that is a horrible thing. My understanding is that it's painful when you're around more than one person speaking? Is there any cure or is it a condition still waiting? So sorry, Jack. Hugs :)

betty said...

Its gotta be hard to try to communicate with your hearing loss on top of the tinnitus. I know the older I get it sometimes is hard to discern words someone is saying if there is a lot of background noise. Makes it a bit challenging with the work I do, LOL.

It does seem like you have tried to compensate the best you can though with what you have to work with.