Friday, January 10, 2020
Solitude, Alone in a crowd? #1
Autos of beauty
That Chrysler Cordoba, I can still hear Ricardo Montalbán doing the advertising.
I chose 100% deafness to 90% loss one in ear and 97% loss in the other. I had corrected hearing of about 20% with constant noise and misunderstanding. Now with my ‘devices’ attached and implants my ‘understanding’ is better. As I lost my hearing my ‘understanding’ was terrible. Imagine, while driving, the importance of distinguishing between “NO” and “GO”.
Withdrawing from crowds and conversations becomes normal with hearing loss. Many associate hearing loss to dementia. It is hard to explain but unless you are totally deaf, you honestly have no idea how noisy the world is. The hearing world cannot completely stop noise, unless possibly with ear plugs and underwater.
It is actually ‘funny’. I have been deaf now a few years and with my devices not attached, I actually hear nothing, the world is quiet. At times I even forget I can talk and won’t speak without my devices. I feel silly when I realize I am motioning to Sherry without speaking. I cannot hear my own voice. ;-)
As I was losing my hearing there were times I wanted to live far back in the mountains; away from my ‘understanding’ problems. I went from enjoying talking to neighbors to preferring ‘waving’ neighbors. You can laugh at this, but to this day I will not go into a public ‘two seater’ restroom until I watch the door long enough to know it is vacant. I am not sure about women, but men tend to talk in toilets. Toilets ‘echo’ and flushing is terrible. I am weary of standing at a urinal and explaining, hey I'm busy, I have no idea what you are saying, or I am deaf, etc. YES, I still watch toilet doors. I also realize it is MY PROBLEM not the other guy.
PS: Maybe I will continue this tomorrow.;-)